an acquired taste.
i might just win an award… for most absent blogger. but reality says (despite best intentions), that’s what happens when you move across states, start a new career, volunteer for multiple organizations, have family stresses to take care of, buy a condo, get a puppy, and actually would LIKE to have a social life.
in other words. i’ve been busy. the type of busy that is demanding, hectic, and most of all… tiring.
and now, 9 months after moving back to missouri, i’m finally at a place that it’s all slowed down (by a mere ONE or TWO mph, but still). i had questions posed by those around me. i had to think. i had to put the past year in perspective. i had to truly engage the past.
where am i going? what am i doing? what do i want? what did not work previously? who am i?
running (not in a literal, lace up your shoes and go outside way… but in a mental, occupy your time with anything else to keep from thinking about it way). that’s been my goal. to keep running. to stay as far from the answers as was possible at any given moment.
so now the question becomes… how do i get off this familiar path? how do i stop running and become ‘me?’ the full me. the adaptable and confident me. the me that is more than just… busy.
(i guess i start writing. start thinking. start talking honestly. in a hope that reality is found).